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Always runnin' behind Will I ever catch up? Or will i just be a hiccup? Just a whisper in time Doomed to be a mere second glance Intently searching to find a balance A meger fawn on a mission With heart and soul locked in submission And the keys in the ignition My journey remains an endless dance Happily ever after? No storybook romance? Yes it seems a simple existance would be truly sublime Alas 'tis outta reach

Lost within my own mind Can't relax Can't unwind Work all day, at night cooking dinner Party on the weekends, I'm a saint I'm a sinner Living my life my way No regrets, in the end I'm never the winner But I am what I am, at least while im here I choose to live without fear like flesh into gear    You see my dear...I'ts quite simple You can't change me any more than i want to change

For Me...   I stand strong      But not for long Because hearing the same old songs     Breaks me down just a lil bit And each striking chord leaves cracks   Pinholes in my skin, like thumbtacks .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  . .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  .  . Oh these lyrics mught just break my back   Yea...we could do all that...OR... I could get away from it all  Jump just to see how far I'll fall   After working so hard to climb that hypathetical wall And all the kings men can't put ME back together again They'd probably cost more than I can afford anyway So what is left to say...

To wake up sometimes was torture Under privelaged, left in society's decay Forced into maturity, never able to savor immaturity Never seeing a real "starry" night Their sweet glow is choked out By these big city lights Home is gone, and these streets I once knew... As well as my memories... Serve as nothing but painful reminders Of having a childhood stripped away

Outside I gaze upward towards the sky Dark clouds loom and assemble Promising to bring sweet relief to my precious dixy soil And hints of moisture tickle the sense of smell Looking inward now this tempest rages onward Tearing apart all that is rational within my soul Along with the dark clouds these storms bring promise of rejuvination Both emotional and physical This drenching rain serves to cleanse the earth as well as my spirit of the modern day dredge of every day life

You act without thinking And you think, but you never truly know Revealing yourself in these feelings you show   You want, so desperately, to be evreything Like a star yearning to glow Instead, your black heart leaves you sinking Drifting, wandering alone Becoming what you hated most, just another drone With every friend you've made, every chance has been blown Living in the hell you've created, you are now the man That will never be known

So much inside you'll never realize Spirit flowing with the earth like the rising tides Delve deep into these eyes Take care and time to explore Examine this open book Cover to cover You may miss some things so be sure to take a second look You'll find yourself wanting more and more So much inside you'll never realize Because you can't read beyond this cover Accept me for me and let go of foolish pride Love me or leave me the hell alone!

Watching the empty swings Where we once sat and talked of worlds passed Just truly living, laughing  I remember sitting by the bay Enduring the heat blisters that would manifest Even more so we, together, endured the lives we were given On that spot where you busted your ass on the rocks We sat and laughed on the beach for hours Just truly living, laughing Returning here once again Cole Park just isn't the same and never will be Walking down these old wooden docks Where we strolled away so many dense Texas nights Just truly living, laughing, sharing, being ourselves Until now it was the only time I truly felt alive An

Pleas for sanity Drowned out by irrationality Lavish life styles and vanity Clutching this world  Claws sunk in deep    Screaming for change Refusing to eat, unable to sleep Becoming more "deranged" Losing hope for a peaceful existence So easy to give up with no resistance Detatching one's self, and always remaining at a distance There is only one left in my life truly worth fighting for Never give up, never crumble I count on her to scream when I may only mumble She forever stands with me, strong, proud, and together.... Me and her can set the world on fire